Patting my own back this morning. Luke had a flat tire, so our routine was thrown off, dropping his car at Discount Tire.
I was starving, and I do not do starving well. Today is Day TWO of the 3 Day Refresh, and all I wanted when we drove thru Starbucks was coffee and a bacon, egg and Gouda sandwich. Luke got me one without thinking, and as we sat in the car, feeding Marcus, I thought of every reason WHY I could have it.
By the time his car was ready, and he had already eaten MY sandwich, I was seriously thinking, I could go back through, get one and finish the cleanse later. Seriously, I started it three times, why finish it now.
Then, I heard what was going on in my head. Seriously. Is there such thing as self peer pressure, because I had that going on.
Anyway, it scared me. Our mind is such a powerful thing. If we can’t control our thoughts, our actions and what we put in our mouth… That’s a problem.
I think in this inner debate, what scared me the most, is my DAUGHTERS look to me to learn self control, self love, and commitment. They weren’t with me this morning, but DANG IT… If I can’t control my own tiny actions, how can I expect them to make smart decisions.
This huge inner debate over a freaking breakfast sandwich was so enlightening to me.
You have to believe in yourself. You have to be willing to push through discomfort. (Hunger is extreme discomfort to me). You have to be willing to forgive yourself of your mistakes and start over when you mess up.
Y’all, don’t give up on yourself. Stop the excuses. Push past what you THOUGHT was your breaking point.
All this decision did was remind me that NO one is in charge of my health, my body, or my happiness… But me. Self control equals self love!
Cheers to celebrating the tiniest of wins, skipping what I wanted and sticking to what I needed. WIN- Shakeology for breakfast, on track with my cleanse. NEXT- Morning workout… Coming up!